Mini vent...a mix of negative emotions

I get a call from LAL telling me that his job has a position availible and to get KD up there. On my lunch hour I go home to get her. Everyone is home. KB and WB where expecting a call so WB said he wasn't going anywhere. KD and I leave, we go do our thing and on the way back we pass WB walking down the street. He had a bag in his hand. KD gets ill and says that m'fer brought some more alcohol! This makes me ill and I ask her if she had the money that they are saving. She is better at saving than WB. This chick says that she don't have any say in his money! 'Cuse me if I am wrong, but my unwanted opinion is that if I had a fiance and we supposed to be saving money to get a place together and currently he is the only one working....I HAVE SAY in where some of that money goes!

So I am mad........I don't know what to say.........I think for half a second and say "If another week and another check comes and goes and yall don't have any money saved...." she cut me of by saying that she knew and that WB has his next check going to direct deposit. My question was how can he have direct deposit with no bank account? She goes on talking about something that makes no sense and I look at her like she is crazy. She just says that's what WB told her! WTF ever! I can't stand people who lie, can't stand it even more when they lie and they don't have to! I just hope and pray that they don't make me get mean and kick them out. I already have my friends and family telling me it's time for them to go.

I know that I can be overly nice, but when I am pushed I get ugly and usually do things without thinking beforehand and don't care. I don't want to get to that point where I am evicting them. KD wants out of the hood so bad. We had a long talk the other night and she was telling me stories and showing me things like her stab wounds. She was truely hurt by the Walmart thing falling through and vowed to stop smoking herb. I think it's easy for her to do it now because she is not surrounded by it like she used to. Once she gets back around people who participate I wonder how strong her vow is. I want her out the hood almost as bad as she wants out. I am trying to help her get out. I truely beleive she can do it without WB, but she loves him. *sigh* WB says he wants out the hood, but deep down.....I truely think that he don't.

Continue to pray for KD and her employment. For my sake and theirs.........

And they wonder why nobody treats them like adults......why they never have anything......why everything seems to go wrong......why no one would take them in (parents and siblings included)......there is a light at the end of this tunnel.......I know there is!