Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Tuesday, September 2nd

I picked up yet another side hustle. This time at a facility in Raleigh not too far from my place (Hallelujah). The only thing I had left to do was get my drug test and employment physical. No problem! They scheduled me up at a local urgent care on 9/2.

I went. I urinated in the cup. I read some letters on the wall. I raised my hand when I heard the beep. I showed them some physical movements. Then I got my pressure taken....


That was not a typo! WTH? I have always been a large person, but I prided myself on having good medical numbers. Just to make sure, I asked to chill out for a few and have them take it again. They obliged...

160/110 *insert mental curse words*

The very nice P.A. recommended that I see a M.D. for a medication prescription. I politely smiled and nodded while in the back of my mind I already knew that I was not going to take a blood pressure pill. That moment was also my "wake up call". You know when you watch people with dramatic weight loss stories/transformations the person usually mentions the wake up call that kick started their journey? Yeah, sitting on that treatment table staring at the numbers was mine.

I have tried almost every weight loss method/program around and the only one that really worked for me was keeping a food log. Many moons ago I had signed up for My Fitness Pal, but I was too lazy to start actually using it. Right now, the app is one of my best friends. That friend that knows about all about your measurements and weight! LOL!

I also started Tae Kwon Do with Pooka. It is harder than it looks! That's all I will say about that, LOL!

As of this past Sunday, I am down 21 pounds and my blood pressure is back to "normal" on a consistent basis! I am taking baby steps because I want this to be the last time I ever see my current weight or hypertension level blood pressures ever again! For some odd reason, I have this gut feeling that this time is gonna be the real deal, long term, healthy living lifestyle transformation! Coming from someone that has started a million and three diets in her lifetime, this time it just feels different!

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

For real this time

Shout out to the folks that hit my blog up a couple days ago! That was a pleasant surprise. I thought I'd get a comment by the end of the month from a spammer or something, LOL!

I really do plan on getting back to blogging more often. I miss using this tool as an outlet.

So what's been up?

Yesterday I went to get an employment physical. Of course they told me I was morbidly obese and needed to lose weight. You don't need a degree to figure that out. But one thing that came from that physical scared me horribly....

My blood pressure.

Right now, at the levels I am running. I can have a heart attack, stroke, you name it! I am not symptomatic but Hypertension is nothing to play with. I strongly prefer not to take meds, so now I have to act right to live! This isn't just for looking good anymore...this is for my life! I am taking this seriously even more so than I have in the past.

I have started to take Taekwondo along with Pooka. She is a 2nd degree black belt now. After taking one class full of basics, I told Pooka that I had so much respect for her craft now. I liked to have passed out from the easy stuff!!!!! LOL!

I hope and pray that I can get on and stay on the road to health!

Monday, September 01, 2014

You know how I do

You know how I do, post something, then disappear for awhile. LOL! I am on FB everyday though. I am a facebook addict. I can admit that. What's funny to me is that now that my life is pretty busy on a pretty constant basis, many people are guessing and assuming about what's going on in my non existent life based on my fb posts. Little do people know, I only post about 1/4th of my personal life on the fact I got TWO tickets within five minutes of each other for allegedly running stop signs! I am still irritated about that non sense!

Anywho, mom is good. Pooka is good. Pooka turned 13 on Wednesday. I have a teenager! It doesn't feel like that much time has passed, but it has. She is soo beautiful, smart, and talented! Yes, I am biased. Sue me.

I didn't read my last entry. But I pretty much work everyday. That is my life right now. My social life is pretty non existent, but I am trying to honestly work on it. At the moment I have 1 full time PT gig, 2 as needed PT gigs, 1 part time private PT gig every 3 weeks, and 1 part time companion/sitter yeah, I am never home. I don't want my social life to suffer like it has this year, but with higher bills and this 6 figure student loan to keep under control, I have to hustle hard...or hit the lottery...or find an extremely wealthy sugar daddy, LOL!

But as I stroll into September, I kinda like some of the changes I have made. Being busy allowed me the chance to stop gossiping all the time. I wasn't trying to be a gossiper, but I always found myself talking about and asking about what was going on with people that were not in the room. I had to check myself quick. I made a conscience choice not to have full blown conversations about people that were not a part of the conversation. So outside of the, how are your kids, momma, husband, wife, pets deal. I kept my lips kinda tight. I still have a ways to go with the gossiping, but I have come a long way this year. I am proud of myself.

I am growing a container garden. So far, so good! Right now I have 10 containers and I am growing lettuce, spinach, cantaloupe, and tomatoes. If I manage to harvest at least ONE thing that is edible, I will call my efforts successful! LOL! Don't judge me! It rained ALOT recently and some of my plants suffered for it, but I hope with a few consecutive warm and rain free days, my plant children will dry out and get back on track.

That was all over the place, but whatever. This is my blog and I can journal how I please, LOL!

Saturday, May 10, 2014

So much to say, so little time

Hello! Here is my annual blog post, LOL! It has been sooo long since I've blogged, I forgot my password and had to reset it!

Let's see...what's been up? Hmmmmmmm

Well, my mother, Pooka and I moved out of my apartment and into a house at the end of last month. Kinda exciting! I was in that apartment for 10 years and there are soo many memories in that place. When I locked the door for the final time I got kind of emotional. The person I was that moved in was definitely not the same person that moved out! We are not renting a nice home not too far from the old apartment. Both Pooka and I love her school and neither of us wanted her to go elsewhere. I was initially looking to purchase a home in this area because I like the area and plan to be here a long time, but my debt to income ratio was out of control so I could only afford to buy a house on the other side of town. No, thank you. It has been 2 weeks in the new house and so far everything is going well. The thing I enjoy most is having my own room back. Everyone now has there own space to decompress. Love it!

Mom is great. Nothing new to report there.

Pooka is good. She caught a bad stomach virus, got better, then came down with Bells Palsy. Basically it is an inflammation that affects the facial nerve on one side of her face. So visually she looks like she had a stroke...but she didn't. It goes away with time so everything is all good. She was initially self conscience about it, but now she is milking it for sympathy and attention, LOL!

Me? Well I am here. I work 7 days a week and have 3 employers. My full time is a therapist gig. I work "as needed" for another company doing therapy stuff and I am also a sitter/helper for a 102 year old lady for a couple of hours on Saturday and Sunday. I'm laughing at myself because when I was in school I told myself I would only have 1 job once I got my license. *sigh* Student loans and a larger rent payment per month said differently, LOL! More money, more problems.

I still bleed...a affects my non existent love life. My face is all bumpy and junk food has been my go to for pleasure. TMI, I know.

Awhile ago I was in a car accident. It was my fault. The sun was glaring and I hit the back driver side door of this lady. I was going about 10-15mph so the damage wasn't spectacular. I am thankful for that.

I brought a lawn mover today. I got one of those old school reel mowers. I went in the store to buy this super duper, fancy smancy mower and I was actually down sold! He basically told me that for the size yard I have (small) the cheaper reeled one was a better fit for me. *shrug*

I was growing tomatoes and kale. The tomatoes didn't last long because of the bipolar weather and my kale was going strong until the move. I didn't tell anyone I loaded them in my cooler so everything got knocked around and messed up during the move. I tried to save my kale, but failed. Hey, that rhymed! I will try again really soon.

During the move I also gave my mother my bed. Mainly because I want a new bed and because if anyone had to sleep on the floor here in the new place, I'd rather it be me than my mother. I was going to go for a fancy smancy tempur.pedic bed, but today I found a really nice complete set (head/foot boards, frame, spring and mattress) for about the same price and it felt soo good to lay on. So hopefully my camping out on the floor days will be over when I get paid again :)

That's about it. I actually miss blogging and hope to get back to doing it fairly regularly. We shall see!


Thursday, March 06, 2014


I didn't look to see what I typed about the last time I actually blogged nor did I look at the date, LOL! Now that I have already started this entry I don't feel like going back to see! Lazy? Yep! Care? Nope! LOL!

What's been up?

Me: I'm good. Still working at the skilled nursing facility. Been there since June 24th. So far, so good. My coworkers are laid back and easy to get along with. I also picked up a few "as needed" weekend PT jobs and 1 companion job. The companion job is basically sitting and talking to an 102 year old woman for 2 hours on Saturday and 2 hours on Sunday. Easiest money I've ever made. Right now the facility she is in is under quarantine due to a virus. So this weekend I have to call her every half hour of my regular shift. So, for example...on Saturday I work from 6:30 to 8:30, so I will call her at 6:30, 7, 7:30, 8 and 8:30 just to say goodnight. Could it get any easier? LOL!

My lease for my current place is up at the end of April. I can't believe that I moved in on May 1, 2004! Where has the time gone? Unfortunately, the apartment I rent is income based and even with my mother coming to live with me, I still make too much to stay where I am. I don't like the process of moving, but I am excited about the house that my family and I will most likely move into. I thought about buying a home, but my debt to income ratio is toooo high thanks to my education loans that I have to wait a bit before I look into home ownership. That is fine with me. I am in no rush to buy a house.

Speaking of my about someone stole the rent payments out of my landlord's dropbox? Guess who's rent payment was in the box at the time? *sigh* Fortunately, the company I pay has insurance and everything was pretty much taking care of after I submitted all my documentation proving I was one of the tenants harmed.

Mom: She is good. Nothing to much to say about her really.

Pooka: She is good as well. Still doing the same ole thing. Her grades this year are up and down. We are working on it. She is really focused on her art as of late and she is really producing some great work (if I do say so myself) so much that if I finally man up and get a tattoo, I would let her design it! Her latest phase is dragons and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.

Well gotta go take Pooka to her 8pm demo team practice.....*sigh* I want to go home! LOL

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

Playing Catch Up

It has been forever! After I write this I will try to catch up with whomever is still blogging :)

What's been going on in my little slice of the universe?

Mom is still living with me. She is good. Took her to see Frankie Beverly this past weekend. We both had a good time.

Pooka is doing well as well. She has earned her black belt in Tae Kwon Do and loves it. She has brought up her grades TREMENDOUSLY this year. I swear, at the end of last year I was honestly praying that she would make it to the 7th grade. The transition to middle school hit her hard, but it looks like she is bouncing back with a vengeance! I am so proud of my kid...when I don't want to choke her! LOL She is in that odd pre teen stage where she wants to be a little girl and also wants to be a teenager. It really all depends on the crowd she is aroud, LOL! These years are tough and I hope she finds herself and where she is comfortable soon. While I am thinking about it...why don't preteens use deodorant without prompting???? I feel like if I don't tell her to apply some before she heads out to the bus stop...IT WON'T HAPPEN! smh

Pooka's Dad and Step Mom:
They still live nearby and they do what they can. I finally decided to friend his main chick (they have an open relationship so I must define which lady I am referring to) on FB and every now and again it annoys me when she posts on my wall or makes comments to things I have said. I am still learning to "share" Pooka. She honestly loves  Pooka dearly and if it wasn't for her helping Pooka's dad, he wouldn't be able to do the little financial things that he does manage to do for her sometimes. This is not a bash by any means. I just get protective over my child. Again, I am still learning to share even after all of these years.

Love Life:
I am still friends with my ex. We do things sometimes. LOL!

Work Life:
I love and am in love with my career! Not so in love with the employer. They have some things in active practice that goes against my ethical beliefs. I am keeping my eyes open and throwing my application and resume different places. Until someone else picks me up I will be the best PT I can be and do my best to cover my behind as best as possible.

Personal Life:
Since my employment is more lucrative I have been able to go to and purchase tickets to most of the shows I would like to attend. Like I mentioned earlier I took my mom to see Frankie Beverly. On Oct 19th I am taking my mom to a homecoming concert featuring a lot of old school rap/hip hop artists and BBD. I am excited about that! I got some other shows down the pike as well but I think that is all for October! :)

I have also been kinda down lately. Not for any particular reason. I kept telling people that the only way that I know that I am down is that my house consistently is a mess, I am always tired, I don't sleep well, and I am gaining weight. My already heavy set behind is GAINING weight. I swear to God if I gain anymore I will start looking into the surgery....AND I HATE SURGERIES! I have started back walking and this weekend I hope to start swimming again. On Friday I am going to start taking a wellness class at Pooka's TKD school. I have to do better. I must do better.

This December one of the girls that started PT school with me but had to take some time off due to having a child is graduating. Me and my friends are going to support her on her big day. It has been a year since we have all been together (can't believe it's almost been a year since I got my hood) and as much as they love me regardless of what I look like...I can't let them see me like this. I look in the mirror and post live, unfiltered photos of myself on social media just as a way to force myself to look at me and find something positive. Okay enough of that....

This coming March my maternal grandmother wants all of her kids and grandkids to go to the Bahamas. In 2007 we all went to Jamaica and had the time of our lives! So she wants to relive that vacation for her 70th birthday in April. I am already saving my money! This is yet another reason I need to shed these pounds!

I have 4 mins left on the computer at the library so I will say....I don't have a laptop but I am working on that...I do have a smartphone that is decent. I pretty much had no choice but to upgrade from my slide phone with keyboard (long story) and in August I got cable! :)

I am moving on up! LOL


Sunday, July 07, 2013

This is the title until I think of one :)

It's after 3am and I am at the group home working 3rd shift. The house is clean and the residents are safe and sleeping soundly. I am up to speed on everyone's business on FB and chit chatted with my night owl friends.

So I guess I can update my blog :)

Technically I resigned from the state job and group home weeks ago. But I got a call this morning asking if I could come in so here I am *shrug*

I am 2 weeks into the PT position and I like it so far! There are some business things that I don't particularly like, but those things are pretty standard no matter the skilled nursing facility you work. The biggest thing I don't like is that I get paid every 2 weeks and with this company I have to work 2 weeks in the hole. Which equates to money being realllllllly tight for me right now. But it's temporary so I will roll with it!

Part of me wants to start the process of obtaining a specialty certification in my field. I want the geriatrics and neurology certifications which would take me about 3 or 4 years to complete since each specialty requires a boat load of clinic hours and so far I only have 2 weeks worth! LOL! I am still researching all that needs to be done.

Home life is alright. My mom is still doing her thing. Pooka's father lives local now (don't know if I blogged that already) so for the summer Pooka spends most of her time with him and stays with me here and there. This works perfect for me right now since I am still getting readjusted to working full time on my feet all day.

July 4th was okay. I was the only guest that showed up to a cookout hosted by Pooka's father and his 3 girlfriends (long story short, open relationship). It was kinda awkward. The last time the 6 of us (me, Pooka, her father, 3 ladies) were in the same room together was around this time last year when Pooka was in the hospital for her surgery. Everything went fairly decent until his ladies tried to correct me on what Pooka could and could not have at her birthday party. I knew then it was time to start getting myself together to leave.

My birthday is this month! I have not decided on what I want to do yet! I am going to work on the actual day, but as far as the weekend before and after...who knows!