Monday, October 03, 2005

Analytical Mind Extraordinaire

That's what one of my personal therapist (great friend) called me today. He thinks I break down things too much and try to find the reason for everything. LAL has told me in the recent past that I read into things too much. Everyone else says that I inquisitive AKA ask too many questions. But I can't help it. I don't like not knowing and I always want to know why.

The question I asked my friend today is why would someone like me. Don't get me wrong, there are some days I get out the bed look in the mirror and think that I am the ish, the crem de la crem and people would be crazy not to think I am somebody! But other days I feel like I feel now.

LAL don't like when I tell him that he should pursue his options if they fit him better and that I will step to the side at anytime needed. I also explain how I don't want to hinder anyones happiness.

I really can't understand how LAL could like me beyond having sex every now and again. I don't understand why people want to hang around me sometimes. I wish I could see and experience what everyone else does. I don't get it, and when I ask I always get told to hush and stop asking questions! I just can't do that.

Sometimes I wish I could.......