Do I see a bit of light at the end of the tunnel?

October 20th, 2005. That is the projected move in date for WB and KD. They went and actually applied and put money down on the place they been looking at. They were telling me how the talk went with the complex people and they are really excited. I'm still praying all the backround checks go smoothly. It's definitely good news. Another step in the right direction. Next......

Mommy and I again must have another talk about Pooka. I understand that grandparents will be grandparents but me inforcing and reinforcing my rules are greatly hindered when someone comes behind me and allows the opposite. I am sooo tired of the whining and crying for nothing. This morning I almost lit into her because we didn't want to get dressed this morning. Which isn't really all that bad, but the fact I got so heated just lets me know I am close to my limit. Right now I am considering taking her to her father since he has temporary, hopefully turned permenate, housing by himself. The only thing is the financial part. I don't have enough to make 2 round trips right now. Next.....

I need to cry. I really feel the need to let some things go. I tried to make myself cry but it just didn't work. With all those negative thoughts, I was led to a binge which always ends in me crying, but still no tears. I don't know what it's gonna take, but I need some internal cleansing. A nice healthy cry. Next.....

I have midterms this week...the one for prof Umfufu is today and I am as ready as I am gonna get. I am trying to Ace his class but it's not easy. We found out Monday that there was one girl in class who has got 100% on every homework and test. Umfufu had the head of the department present her with a gift. This made me ill because he didn't recognize the folks that are trying. One of my classmates told me that it's because she stays in the math lab all the time. Well darnit I don't have time to be in math lab. I got other things that require my attention just as much as his class does. So I just have to get over it. I will soon.

Lata!