I need balls

I really wish I had the balls to say "Get Out"! But I don't. I am tired of coming home and seeing KD and or WB in my living room/their room. I know I am the only person that can change the situation, but I am a softee. Even though I tried to hide my stress from my family. They knew something was wrong with me this weekend. Let's start with Friday.....

EEEEEEarly Friday morning I picked my aunt up from RDU. I dropped her off at her hotel, went to work, went back to the hotel drove her around, got WB from work, went home, dropped my aunt back at her hotel. By time all this happens, I got home around 2am. At 2am I am usually knocked out. My aunt had intentions on going to the fair Saturday so I took in some highly interupted sleep.

Saturday I went to class and back to the hotel. By this time another cousin had came up from another part of the state to hang out. It started out good but then my aunt checked her messages and her job called and pissed her off. That was the main reason she flew down for the weekend. Her job is really stressing her right now, but anyways......my aunt is the type chick that when something is bothering her she talks about it constantly and is forever on the negative tip. Which is not fun at all.

Then my cousin Hollywood (I think that is the name I gave her from our Chicago trip) but anyways Hollywood phone rings just about every half hour, most of the time it's different dudes. After she got a call from main dude she shows me picture on her phone of her baby. During our Chicago trip she was hard up on this one dude so naturally I was like "oh so this is what *insert dude name* looks like" and she starts laughing and tells me that he is passed and a couple have passed since him. This one was new. But didn't we go to Chicago in August????? I'll leave that alone.

My original plan was to hang out with my family Saturday morning and chill in the bed all day Sunday. Hollywood has a car and so does her 3 male friends she has up here so my aunt had transporation. Saturday I hung out and got suckered into driving around and what have you. We got back late in the evening and Hollywood was ready to go clubbing. Uhhhhhhhhhh no! I don't have money like they do. They always claim to be broke, but they are not broke for real. When I say that I am broke, I am broke. That's another reason why I didn't want to chill with them too long Saturday cuz I know they want to go buy something/somewhere and I can't roll with them. Anyways once I knew I was spending the night at the hotel got some rum and coke to keep me all together, just like I had to in Chicago. Darn shame...I love my family, I really do, but I can't be around them for extended periods of time without sipping on something.

Sunday I was just gonna get dressed and go home but nooooooooooooo we wanna go to f'n Cracker Barrel for breakfast. Not that it's extremely far, but I had an 1/8 of a tank of gas and just enough money for gas to get me through till payday. I inform the fam that I was leaving and Hollywood breaks out "Well I am leaving cousin abc's house and going back home". Let me go back....Sunday my aunt and Hollywood where going to meet one cousin at another cousins house who lives in the next city over. They had to go over plans for our family thanksgiving. I am not apart of that family committee so I had no real need to go. But when Hollywood said she was leaving for home st8 from my other cousins. That left me to have drive my car so my aunt could have a ride back to Raleigh. Like I said, I need bigger balls. I should have told them to kiss my butt and to have one of the other family members drive her back to Raleigh.

But anyways, we all spent the day at my cousins and I didn't say very much cuz I had no purpose to be there except to taxi. They did lecture me on why I was acting funny. My aunt suggested that I was stressed out due to my current living situation. They are just going on and on and on and I just sat there. They even told me what my cut off date should be and how I needed to this that and the other. Blah blah blah. I didn't say not one word, just a smile now and again.

My aunt is seriously considering moving to Raleigh. I can't stand the notion. Part of the reason I liked Raleigh was because I had family close, but not too close. All I could do is suggest cities that where near by and tell her how much better they where than living here.

I am at work and I am tired as heck! I don't know why I could not sleep Saturday night. I literally stayed up all night and functioned properly all day Sunday. Once AGAIN I missed football. I did sleep 3 hours last night, that was kinda nice. Now I am sleepy as heck and irritable. I just hope and pray main hater don't talk to me today or my supervisor says something cuz I am not in the mood to deal with it right now.

On the positive note. Today is fall break so I get to not go to school for ONE whole day! I don't know what I am gonna do with a entire day! I think they said they took time off fall break so our Thanksgiven break could be longer. What and ever!