More than we can bare

I am really starting to get tired of this bad karma around me. I don't know how much longer I can smile and count my blessings. I try to do right by people. Do any and everything in my ability to help when I can. Mine my own business for the most part. But I get slapped in return. I wanna sit and ask God "why me" but I don't wanna know the answer. I am tired of crying about my life. I am tired. I have standed still.....I have moaned and cried when I couldn't say anymore! What else is there! Maybe I am being shown just how strong a woman I really am. Maybe I am being punished. How much of this am I supposed to swallow before I overdose and die??? It's getting REALLY hard to see this glass half full! I am not supposed to get more than I can bare. I am not supposed to get more than I can bare. I am not supposed to get more than I can bare. I am not supposed to get more than I can bare.