Motivation

One of my life resolution's is to start wearing my work clothes to work. I don't have to, but they are not doing anything but chillin in the closet. In particular I want to wear this power suit I have. This thing is BAD! But in order to work that suit without looking like a stuffed sausage, I gotta lost sommo' of this insulation I got on me. I have been making slow progress hitting the trail and eating less than normal but today I put a little extra pep in my step. On the trail I saw this slim older lady, maybe mid sixties to early seventies, JOGGING! She was with someone who looked like her so I assume it was a grandchild. I have really been lagging in the motivation department when I force myself to go outside. However, seeing that lady getting her jog on really told me that I have no excuse and I started to think about what will I be doing activity wise when I reach her age.

Another thing I noticed was that there are just not friendly people in the world. When I walk around the trail, I try to say good morning or somehow acknowledge someone who is going passed me. If the person is jogging and they pass me more than once I just give a nod after the first time. Some people can't even do that. Now understand the runner who can't find the breath to say hi or the person who expression on there face says they got a lot of stuff going on please leave me alone, but darn! Does it really hurt to at least smile when I say good morning?

This morning another lady jogger passed me and she said something I took as offensive at first. She said "take it little by little and you'll make it". At first I thought she was saying that by me being big that I couldn't take trail all the way around without stopping, that I could only finish it in pieces, so I started comtemplating my response to when she jogged passed me again. Little did she know I have been on that trail for over a year-close to two years and once upon a time I used to walk/jog it! But the other side of reason told me that she wasn't trying to put me down, but she was trying to encourage me. So when she passed me again, I just smiled.

Why do I have to be so sensitive about my weight? Why is it so hard to lose, but so easy to gain? Why do I wanna start a fad diet to make this weight loss progress go faster? I can't wait to be a "thick chick" again. For real, this extra padding is getting old and gots to go. If that older lady can be healthy enough to get her jog on, then I can work it out. She is my motivation. My powersuit is my motivation....dem baaaad jeans I got for Christmas at least 2+ years or so ago with the dragon going down the leg is my motivation. All those prepregnacy pictures of me in my thick days are my motivation to keep going....so what it's gonna take me months, I came close last year and I can do it again....a few pounds at a time....taken it little by little and I'll make it, just like the jogger said.