I got the call today at work. Baby daddy got all his eggs in order and ready for Pooka's extended stay. SHIT!!!! I just KNEW he wasn't going to get it together before the holidays. But according to him......he is ready to step up to the plate and bat for the daily seven month journey of being an active, hands on, single parent! I am just not ready to let go.
I know any single mother reading would be like......
Giiiiiiirl I wish my child's father would at least CLAIM my child nonetheless keep it overnight or Giiiiiiiiiiirl now you can hang out more or something like that... but the truth is for the past 4 years and some months she has been here, with me, part of my routine. Damn this sucks!
The only two things I can think of that I can really benefit from out of this situation is that 1. I will be able to actually save some real money to save now that I don't have to worry about daycare and the extra cost of gas to get her there and 2. It takes one responsibility off my shoulders so I can focus more on myself, my education, my job.......that's about it. Damn this sucks!
I am aware that Pooka is just as much his child as mine and that this is just a temporary situation. When she comes back home it will be time for school and unless her district decides to go year round (which I don't see happening), she will be here 9 months before chilling with her dad again when they are out for the summer. I am trying not to cry but I know when it's time for me to head back to NC that it's all gonna come out. Pooka kept asking me today if she is gonna see her dada and it just made me sad. I don't know if baby daddy told her what's gonna happen but little does she know she is gonna be seeing a lot of dada reeeeeal soon. Damn this sucks!
I haven't started packing and I am set to leave Friday Now that I am sure I have to pack all of Pooka's clothes for that DC weather, I really should get offline and start the ball rolling.
6 comments:
I am close to my mommy and growing up I could not be away from here for more than a day without feeling really sad. Mothers have a special bond with their kids. You are just feeling the bonds stretching and that is what is causing you so much pain. Just call your baby everyday tell her you love her so much and you miss her so much everyday. It will be hard at first but we are here for you. If you want I can call you mama. LOL
Stone - You are so crazy! LOL
Sista Girl, I can't even imagine what it is gonna feel like to have your baby away for that long. I don't even have children (yet), but I know that I would be going crazy.
hey u are procrastinating like me that is NOT good..lol
have fun on your trip
Wow TDRT has came to visit! I feel special now. :-) I am gonna try not to act a fool.
Stac- Oh baby daddy, Pooka, and I are still real close. I hate to say this but she is actually quite the daddy's girl. He comes down to visit when he can and they talk on the phone every other day and when she requests to talk to him. I have been blessed to have reproduced with a man who does what he can to be apart of her life. Just wish sending me money was part of it! ROFL Merry Christmas girl, don't spend too much on dem skrippa's! *wink*
S4R- I got my daughter packed up last night! So tonight I do me and I am done!
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