It was that same cry he had when we dropped her off to daycare 2 hours before his train was to depart. It hurt me then and it's hurting me now even tho' I wasn't there physically to witness it.
He made the best decision for all parties invovled. We both know that. But I don't like that it's hurting him this way.
I thank God that I am so blessed to have created a child with someone who loves his child so much, there are many brother's that don't even know what their child(ren)look like.
He finally broke down and told me how behind he was. He'd been to 3 or 4 lectures for one class this entire semester! Why didn't he tell me?
I knew by his financial past that he owed someone some kinda of money, but I didn't know it was that serious! Between me, his friends, and him pulling more double shifts, he'll be okay. I know it sounds cruddy to offer financial help, but I refuse to see him homeless.
Why did he have to cry? My heart just liquefies. Why did/does he have to be so prideful? He is a great father. Why can't he believe that? Sure he may do some things to make you scratch you head, but you don't get a guidebook when you have a child, you learn as you go. Why won't he listen to me? I am not just saying good things because he is upset, it's the truth.
This is not the end, it's not like he is not gonna see her again. It's not like she isn't 4 hours down the hwy or an hour by plane. It's not like I am blocking access to see her whenever he wants. It's not like between me and my mother sliding up and down 95 he won't see her at least once a month.
He didn't lose.
Why did he have to cry?
Why did I cry?
14 comments:
awww! i think that's so cute! I know, I am a sap, but i think it's adorable. You're right about some fathers not even knowing what their kids look like... it's a shame, that's how everyone in my neighborhood is. How is it that EVERY woman where I live has a baby and NO man does? hmm...
Awww that is so sweet he really love that little(big)baby of yours. That is special I mean it.
It's good to see parents love their child like that. I know exactly how you feel. My daughter has a good father. As a parent, we'll never have an answer to the WHY questions...
It is so wonderful to know there are men in the world who actually want to take care of their kids. Very sweet post.
Wow that is great that he really is a daddy and not a donor! I am so glad that you two have a good relationship for the sake of her. And I am so glad that you care about him as a person that speaks volumes about your character!
Mel - Single dads are on the come up, but we never hear about them
Erry1 - Thanks for the comments. I am thankful and blessed.
damn, baby girl. i read this last night and was crying my damn self.
i know it must pain him to have to let little pooka go for the time being, but it's all for the best.
you are such a sweet spirit! i hope baby daddy understands just what he gave up in you because of his behavior.
It's soo wonderful to see a man be so prideful in taking care of child, putting his childs needs before their own...good to see a man being a man
Now THAT was nice!!!!!Awww.....
funny how we can be emotional and wonder why. your child is fortunate to have parents who care. enjoy these precious moments.
thanks for the comments erry1! I would respond to every1 individually but ize 2 tired!
where was he going?
Sp - Nowhere. My daugher was living w/her dad for a few months and now she is coming back to stay with me.
why did u cry, i heard it said before that tears are weakness leaving the body, i say its str8 up love n devoition... crying makes us feel good.. i'm actually due for a good cry...
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