I'm Good

Yesterday morning I woke up, cooked breakfast and started on a paper that's due this morning. I've done tons of research this weekend so I was well prepared to handle my biz. I did that till it was time to wash up and take Pooka to the free movie @ 10. We saw Clifford and she absolutely LOVED it! To get to the theater we had to walk by the Gold's Gym. When we went in and when we left the movie there were a good amount of traffic coming in and out that door. It was mostly people who looked liked they didn't need a gym, but whatever. I had a fat girl depression moment walking by the gym. I just knew someone was looking out the window and had something negative to say, but you know what. I was in a good mood so I'm good!

My deodorant ran out so after the movie we went to Wally world and come to find out my new favorite kind was gone! :-( Anyways, we took care of Walmart business and had lunch at the near by Mickey D's. Pooka played around in the jungle gym type thingamawhatit and we went home. Being that it was hot as Satan's butthole we were TIRED! We wasn't all that active outside but heat really takes it out of you! So we stripped down to underclothes and layed slam on the floor! I still had not finished my paper so after Pooka fell asleep I got back on my paper. I knocked a good amount out till I got to the last section that supposed to be about 2 pages long. I was stumped so I got off and told myself I'd get back to it. I got a few phone calls.

About 5:30 we got up and got ready to go to my girlfriends cookout, the same one that threw the Memorial Day bash. One day I will host me a party...anyways...We get there and of course one of the first questions she asked was where Kuntry was. I wasn't even expecting that question, but I answered honestly and told her I didn't know. The last time he called *b4 this morning* was on Friday and he said he was going to Chapel Hill *shrug*. Since I had not finished my paper I told myself I would leave the cookout at 8pm, food ready or not. Luckily food was served around 7:30. I felt reallllly ghetto and unpolite by having just finished eating and then rolling out, but that's how it happened. I knew I still had to get Pooka in the bath and in the bed at a decent hour and finish my paper, I didn't have much of a choice. Well I could have not gone, but I didn't like that option. I may just send her an ecard apologizing for being rude.

We got home and lucky for me I can see the firework display from my bathroom window. So Pooka and I watched and then she went to bed. I still was stumped on my paper even after I walked away from it and came back so I just bs'ed my way through 2 pages *oh well*

The highlight of my 4th was when Pooka told me that yesterday was one of the best days ever. That made me feel great. We didn't do anything spectacular but she loved it. I think it was mostly the movie theater cuz she kept talking about it after we left. I think I will take her more often. I am glad LAL didn't come along cuz it was really good just hanging out with my baby. He called me on the job Monday apologizing for Sunday and I've been in such a laid back mood I told him to forget all about it. He offered to take me to lunch because he felt bad and I declined and kept telling him to forget about it, that it was all good. He thinks I was brushing him off, but I wasn't. Everything happens for a reason and I was good not leaving the house Sunday.

Kuntry called this morning talking about "u must of had a good weekend since you couldn't call me all weekend" Well my standard answer to statements like that is the phone works both ways and my numbers haven't changed! Period!

For the past few days I've been good w/out a "friend". I have been good about not having sex. I have been good knowing that I am single. Dare I say it, I actually feel good being single. I am not thinking about what he's doing and why he hasn't called, I really don't care and I am good! I feel good! I had a good time hanging out with my child and I like that.

Granted, I will get the lonely bug again sometime in the future, and I will crave those things that my daughter can't give, but for right now...at this moment...I'm good!