slice them up and throw them in a pitcher of down home sweet tea! Due poor encoding on someone's part and poor interrogation on mine, I found myself in a bind. It's small and there are options but I want it to be a last resort. Basically I get a refund every semester for going to school. It's usually enough for me to buy my books, supplies, and fill up my gas tank. Every time I say that the gov't won't help me, I forget that the little check (small compared to some people that get checks in the 4 digit category) that I do get every semester is a combo of alumni/donations/federal/state/whatever contributions to the university so that is not exactly true. I do receive some kind of gov't help and I am thankful.
Well anyways, last month I called the school to have them translate the refund schedule for me. I wasn't exactly sure of what it was saying. So I asked the lady who answered the phone a few questions, and I didn't ask her the right one so we ended the convo with me under the impression that my refund would be released yesterday. The lady was right sort of...the funds credited my school account yesterday, but I won't have access to it till next week! D'oh! So I arranged some thing like my gas tank around the knowledge that a lil sumtin was gonna come my way yesterday. So now I got to figure out who Imma bum gas money from for next week.
I really don't like borrowing money, it's even worse cuz I had to borrow for my books just a few weeks ago so now it's like I can't handle my finances anymore. But whatever, gotta do what you gotta do sometimes. I just wish the day would come a little sooner where I am not check to checking it so little gliches like yesterday wouldn't mean anything to me. It's kinda hard not to hate on my real friends and internet folks that seem to have it all together. If they want something they get it right then and there w/o blinking. It all looks so simple from the outside. I know in my heart that everyone has their issues. Like my girl who throws all these parties, her house is big and beautiful, with the help of her significant other who loves her dirty panties they transformed their backyard into an tropical paradise, she's always surrounded by friends and or family that love her, she has a great paying job, great sense of style, great personality, humble, all that good stuff...but she can't birth kids and she loves children. I had the painful pleasure of carrying and birthing a child, so it's all the way you look at it.
With all that in mind, I still wouldn't mind to have it a little easier like a lot of others seem to have it. Granted, my girl and most of the people I know and read about went through a lot of tough stuff to get to where they are now and the majority of them deserve it and more. I just want to go to that next level of comfort. I am not trying to be at the tippy top right now cuz I haven't earned it yet, just trying to get to the next level...
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You have no idea how much I agree with you. But on that same token, its JUST like you said, everyone has their issues, but they don't make them public, EVER!
It does look easy from the outside, but most likely, those people worked hard to get where they are, so it wasn't always easy, you know?
I bitch about paying for school, but I know that I am in a good position because even though I HATE taking money out of the account, I know it's there. I can't afford to buy a house on my own, but I know that I can pay for my sons evaluation to go to a special school. And I know if I want to go to a movie, or buy perfume, it's there, but I also know how quickly it can leave. And that's a very scary thing.
When I move on my own, it's going to be a change for me. Though we have lived pay check to pay check, and have asked my family for money kuz we didn't have anything for the next three days or so, I am going to be counting pennies, literally. Because I can only work two days a week with school and the baby (and dodging daycare). I will be getting $$ from the hubby, but still, it's going to be relaly hard and I'm not looking forward to it...
Do you have any friends that go ot the same school as you do? I know that I have a shitload of friend in college and if they have taken a class before that I'm taking, they let me use/have their book. I just dodged buying a $157 book this semester kuz my friends took it in the spring and they are still using the same edition. Maybe try doing that?
Also I don't know much about financial aid, I just know that it is a pain in the ass to get and they don't give enough to those who need it, and give more to those who blow it on beer and clothes. I have seen it, it sucks.
You'll get there it takes time.
From the outside looking in, it may seem that those people are living on easy street, but like you said you never know what they went through to get what they have. Everybody, belive it or not Everybody has something going on with them.
You're young yet, but you'll get there. But I will say to you is PUT GOD FIRST IN ALL THINGS! And he will supply your needs and alot of your wants. Try to give HIM sometime and he'll lighten your load.
mel - Nah I don't have time to socialize much when I am on campus. It's park, go to class, leave class, go to work. LOL But There is a book exchange that sells books cheaper than the bookstore not to far from campus so I do catch some breaks.
chelle - He is always first hun! *smile* I know my time will come, I just wouldn't mind a lil something something now to tide me over...
Things always look better from the outside...
Every situation is different. I was at that point a few years ago, so I know exactly how you feel. My brother had it all together, and I was trying to get there. It was not until I made it to where I am, that a realized that the grass is brown on this side too...
You just have to keep on doing what you know what is best for you and your time will come. It took me a long time to see it that way...Yes, I gueninuely am happy, and maintaining my lifestyle comes with a price as well...Big things come with BIG bills!
...any on the child birth issue. I had a hard time with the first one. I was in the hospital for 3 weeks afterwards and I just don't want to put my body through that right now...Maybe this time will be different, but I have to wait until I am ready for whatever the outcome might be...
Luvin, that's true, cuz even folks like Bill Gates, Oprah, and Trump got problems. Biggie said "More money, more problems" so I know my issues won't disappear when I get into a better position. I am just tired of having the same issues over and over. Soon as one thing falls out of place I am having to compromise the flow.
I am truely glad to have a steady check and to be able to pay my bills to keep a home over me and my daughter head cuz some folks don't have that. I just would like a tad more financial security.
I am sorry to read you had post natal issues. It is something to think about before you and your boo try to have one of your own.
Oh MEL!!! For the record, I can not STAND people who misuse their grants! It burns me UP! I mean UGH!!!!!
I don't think the reality of anyone's life, situations, etc. would hold up well under a microscope and fine toothed comb if we compared it to what we think we see and know about them. Everybody is looking at how green the grass is on the other side and nobody notices the weeds until that grass is yours.
Always take bloggers with a grain of salt. No one can be as happy all the time or as miserable all the time as they blog about.
You know you're going to get through this just fine. Now when that refund comes can I get a couple of dollars? Just kidding.
Your right Freaky, but it still would be nice to have it "like that" for a little while :-)
I'll let you borrow 50 cent with a 2 dollar a second interest rate! LOL
keep ya head up shawt!!!! like u said u gotta do what u gotta do...
You're really a mafia loanshark aren't you? I'll pay you back on the 32nd of Neverary, LOL.
sar, everytime I see "shawt" it makes me smile for some strange reason!
As long as I am getting paid Freaky, as long as I am getting paid :-)
lol I feel u on that
hey u..
just checkin in
DON"T EVEREVEREVERVERVEVREVRVER wish for someone else's items, or possessions. I KNOW it always looks so glamorous or apealing, but everyone is quick to tell what they have, but few are willing to announce what they went through to get it.
-Marz
that's ok girl. just be strong. your time is going to come. be patient. while you're putting lemons in that lemonade, add some peaches. that ish is the BOMB! yummmmmmmm! don't hate on people. it comes back on you. and you don't need that. its hard now. and as cliche as it sounds, it will turn around.
dst - tx for droppin by hun! I 'preciate it!
DR&C - So this means we're blogging again?
Marz - I don't wish for their stuff so to speak, just for the ability to do some of the things they do. I know everything comes at a price.
Jamiel - I gotta try that peaches thing and I know I got to be patient and being a hater comes back on you. But the truth is I get tired of all this stuff sometimes and hanging round people who don't deal with some of the things I do (on the outside) makes me wanna roll my eyes.
i know im late on this one, but i'm playing catch on the blog front...
don't feel bad girl. shit happens to everybody.
and let me just tell you NCCU's refund schedule is we-todd-did. a friend of mine works for (i can't understand why), and they NEVER have his pay check on time. NEVER. and refunds? one of my home girls definately went to check on hers and ended up owing, but it was a glitch and they ended up owing her. crazy.
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