Today is Pooka's staggered entry day into kindergarten. I am happy that she is old enough to start school, but I am sad about a lot of things. Today the teachers and the TA's will evaluate my child and label her as above, right at, or below average. I don't know the terms they use but it all amounts to that. Pooka has never really been really vocal and social with adults and it scares me. I know Pooka talks (and talks and talks and talks) I know what Pooka has in her memory bank, but if she doesn't perform for these folks like they want her to today she might not be labeled properly. I know my child isn't below average and I don't say that because she is my child. But I don't know what's gonna happen today and it scares me.
Another thing that bothers me is that most NC public schools are so focused on passing these standardized test that they teach the test all year. I hate that! If I had the money to send her somewhere where those test are not the focus or if I could quit my job and homeschool...I would in a heartbeat!
Then add on that Pooka is feeling boys right now and I am putting her in a building with at least 10 times more boys than at daycare roaming the halls at any given time.
Then there is the van ride home. I am kinda scared she'll get on the wrong daycare van because there are 2 centers by me with the same name that drop off and pick up at her school. I would pick her up myself but I will be in class when she gets out. *sigh*
I will address my concerns with the folks that will deal with her today. I won't know who her teacher is until tomorrow at 5. They will be finished there evaluations by then. They say they do this so the teachers will have even and fair classes, but I don't buy 100% into that.
Totally off subject, this blue collar guy I mentioned yesterday....see, I have a month to figure out how I am gonna communicate with him that he is cute and if he is not attached I would like his number. The grown way to do it is to just talk to the brotha, but our office walls are made of paper, there's tons of flies there too then add that there is no where I can pull him to the side without someone there. If I pull him into my office I'll get tons of questions because the things that they pick up are no where near my office! I just don't want folks all in my business. The only thing I could think of was to slide him a note when he comes through next month. Yeah it's highschool, but at least folks won't know too much and if he rejects me him and his boy that be with him can laugh about it on the truck vs. in my face. I can't stand rejection, I don't think nobody likes it.
So other than verbal and written communication, how would you want someone to get your attention?h