As much as I want the weekend to be here, I want to do yesterday over...
My teacher told me that our Mon, Wed class is now a Mon, Wed, Fri class. The folks made a mistake when putting the class up online now we gotta pay for the mistake. I think it's unfair for those of us that work and live off campus. I mean some of us register early so we can schedule the rest of our responsibilities around that! UGH, if I could redo yesterday I would have had something to say to influence him to reconsider, like maybe suggesting Friday's classes being online. Granted many Fridays I won't have to be on campus because of baseball games, but there will be times I'll have to go on campus.
I got a phone call out the blue from Redbone. The conversation started out pretty normal till he asked to come by. After he was assured that that wasn't going to happen he started attacking me in a sensitive area of my life. I have problems dealing with feeling like I am just a wet hole to men in my life, that I'd never really be good enough to be a one and only, that I don't have much worth or value. I acknowledge this issue and I'm working on it. It takes time to erase. Redbone knows this so when he got shot down he chose to bring me down with him. If I could redo yesterday I would not have picked up the phone or would not have allowed him to upset me like he did. He did inspire me to dress real cute today and lift my head that much higher cuz I simply refuse to let him have that power over me with his words. I am somebody special and one day some guy is gonna notice it, genuinely treasure it, and reap the benefits of it.
Then I made a phone call to someone and ended up taking them to a place I didn't want them to go. You'd think after my phone call earlier I'd realize that words can hurt by what you say and how you say it. If I could redo yesterday I would have been clearer with my words, been more understanding and asked more of the right questions.
The truth is I can't have a do over for yesterday. So all I can do is suck up having to change my schedule around...not listen to folks that really don't matter...continue to find and cherish my own value...and try not to be so confusing.
EDIT: My boy LJ *over on the left* is on his way to Baghdad. If you have a spare moment, pray for him and all our military going over into this mess we got going on..... *sigh* I miss him already :-(