Thursday, January 11, 2007

Do over...

As much as I want the weekend to be here, I want to do yesterday over...

My teacher told me that our Mon, Wed class is now a Mon, Wed, Fri class. The folks made a mistake when putting the class up online now we gotta pay for the mistake. I think it's unfair for those of us that work and live off campus. I mean some of us register early so we can schedule the rest of our responsibilities around that! UGH, if I could redo yesterday I would have had something to say to influence him to reconsider, like maybe suggesting Friday's classes being online. Granted many Fridays I won't have to be on campus because of baseball games, but there will be times I'll have to go on campus.

I got a phone call out the blue from Redbone. The conversation started out pretty normal till he asked to come by. After he was assured that that wasn't going to happen he started attacking me in a sensitive area of my life. I have problems dealing with feeling like I am just a wet hole to men in my life, that I'd never really be good enough to be a one and only, that I don't have much worth or value. I acknowledge this issue and I'm working on it. It takes time to erase. Redbone knows this so when he got shot down he chose to bring me down with him. If I could redo yesterday I would not have picked up the phone or would not have allowed him to upset me like he did. He did inspire me to dress real cute today and lift my head that much higher cuz I simply refuse to let him have that power over me with his words. I am somebody special and one day some guy is gonna notice it, genuinely treasure it, and reap the benefits of it.

Then I made a phone call to someone and ended up taking them to a place I didn't want them to go. You'd think after my phone call earlier I'd realize that words can hurt by what you say and how you say it. If I could redo yesterday I would have been clearer with my words, been more understanding and asked more of the right questions.

The truth is I can't have a do over for yesterday. So all I can do is suck up having to change my schedule around...not listen to folks that really don't matter...continue to find and cherish my own value...and try not to be so confusing.

EDIT: My boy LJ *over on the left* is on his way to Baghdad. If you have a spare moment, pray for him and all our military going over into this mess we got going on..... *sigh* I miss him already :-(

25 comments:

deepnthought said...

YOU ARE A GEM. I am glad you realize that. redbone is a biscuit head. You are beautiful and intelligent and someday you will have the husband and maid(that we share in the summer.)lol.

you dont need ado oever cause believe it or not that day just made you stronger. Sorry about the schedule change. That does suck.

deepnthought said...

a do over. sorry my key board still sticking...lol

Ladynay said...

Biscuit head made me really laugh at loud! :-D

I guess we can share the maid during the summer cuz that's when I'm doing most my traveling so I wouldn't be home to mess up the place anyway *wink*

The schedule change sucks rotten eggs!

Freaky Deaky said...

The scheduling snafu was a bonehead move. Hopefully, enough people will complain about it to the right person to at least make someone show up to class and apologize after they're torn a new one.

Sorry Redbone doesn't take rejection well and felt the need to tear you down to make himself feel better. You shouldn't believe that and I hope you learn to stop doing so sooner rather than later. I'm sure there's a line of NC men waiting to love them some Ladynay.

Hopefully, you work things out with the other person.

Okay, all of this niceness is beginning to make me itch. I'm going to go sit the corner and scratch now.

Ladynay said...

Freaky, your right enough people gotta do it. I'll talk to my classmates Friday.

Awwww aren't you sweet? I'm working on it. Please tell me where this line of NC dudes start? LOL

Sitting in a corner scratching? What you're a dog now? HAHAHAHAHA

Freaky Deaky said...

Being nice makes me itch.

I forget the name of the street but it begins with a N, I think. There's a whole bunch of dudes waiting for you. Google it and be gentle during your auditions.

Ladynay said...

Freaky, I'm sure they make a cream for that! LOL

Oh, and good looking out! I'm gonna hit Google up right now and tell my supervisor I'm leaving early! HAHAHAHA

Thoughts of a Southern gal said...

Tell Biscuit head to play in the street!

Don't try to worry about yesterday. That's one thing I've learned, don't worry yourself over what happened yesterday, the day before, etc..b/c you can't changed it.

I would have been up in someone's office about that schedule change.

Ladynay said...

HAHAHAHAHA@you calling him a biscuit head! Don't ask me why that is so funny to me! HAHAHAHA

Today is definitely a new day and I feel great!

I will see if a few folks wanna do it with me tomorrow cuz there is strength in numbers. If not, I'll just put my 2 cents down and see what happens.

Honey-Libra said...

Girl recognizing that we have problems and aren't perfect is half the battle....redbone is a freaking spam and sewer sandwich (stinky)lol and I would have called him back and ragged on him and of course that would have been mean but if would have mad you feel better LOL..sike let me stop. You don't need to do over..cause you got something out of it..you live and you learn...on top of that who knows your teacher might realize that what occurred sucks and you all shouldn't have to pay for it.

Ladynay said...

spam and what???? I think I just threw up in my mouth! Ugh! You crazy girl! LOL

Girl the last thing I wanted to do was call him back. All I could do was go to the restroom and cry for a minute.

I'll see what's up with the school thing 2morrow.

Pamalicious said...

A swift Payless Heel to the head (cause he ain't worth yo good pumps) is what Redbone needs.

I'm glad that even in the midst of a storm you were able to seek 'cover' and come out like the Sun. Focus on preparing yourself for the next phone call - and create the perfect storm to knock that negro to his knees.

Um, they can't be changing the school game in the middle - that's like when they mess up on a sale price and you get to keep it, lol

We all have days we want to 'do over' but a week from now - you'll see how that has helped you excel in your continued journey.

Keep your head up - put your freakum outfit on and WORK IT GURL!!

Ladynay said...

The next phone call??? I didn't tear him a new one but hopefully there will be no more contact being made, not a day, week, year, years from now from him!

I'M SAYING@school!

Oh I got the sexy f'em outfit going on, no doubt! *wink*

ShawnQt said...

Your still my favorite lady!

Ladynay said...

Awwwwwwwwwww *blush* Thank you sweetie that made me smile.

TTD said...

some days are like that.. they dont go as u wish they would.. but as u said there's really not much u can do about except make sure that the next day is 10 times better...

ps - tell red to kick rocks!

Ladynay said...

Hear hear TTD!

Imaint tellin him nuffin else in life if I have anything to do about it!

Lady J said...

Don't let some knuckle head steal your joy. One man's trash is anothers treasure and you are definately a treasure waiting to be found so hang on in there.

To bad about the sucky schedule but it will all work out.

Ladynay said...

J, he only had it for a moment. I took it back, trust!

Everything happens the way it's supposed to.

El Alexander said...

Hey Ladynay...stay course..your classes will work out 4ya how about to not talk to redbone LOL but I'm praying 4 u to stay strong thanks 4 stopping BY!

Teezie said...

Sucks about the class.

And forget his ass. How he going to go there. Please! You are beautiful and that is all that matters. He just made cause he aint going to have you turn his ass out! Hi s loss.

I know what you mean about the one and only. That one will come in time. Shoot I am still waiting........... and waiting...... LOL

Miss ya girl

meljoy said...

:-( I'd hate to be going to school on fridays, I mad emy schedule so I am only there two days a week... I can't do the five day thing and work, eff that! only three more classes and i'm DONE!

And fuck men like that, why even mess with them? Why waste your time talking to them?

Ladynay said...

Only 3 more? Mannnnnnnnnn I wish!

I won't be talking to dude or picking up any of his possible calls ever...

E said...

It's good that you're not contacting Buscuit head again. Hopefully he won't pull the calling you from his best friend's home.

I wish I could have a do over for yesterday (01/11). But at least it ended on a positive note. Rock and I are back on track.

Ladynay said...

I'd stopped calling dude a long time ago! He just called me from out of nowhere. :-(

On this dating/getting to know you rollercoaster sometimes the ride gets bumpy. Glad the tracks smoothed out for you and Rock.