Monday, April 16, 2007

On a roll

This weekend I managed to make 2 people I really care about feel like crap. It was no where near my intent, but it happened and I don't know what to do.

I hurt bad because in both cases it's all my fault. Saying I am sorry/apologizing just won't do, but I don't know what will.

If hurting myself would take the hurt away from them I would, but it won't.

If the tears I'm crying could wash all the pain away I would cry a ocean.

I'd do just about anything to make it all right.

I just don't know what to do.

12 comments:

Omar Ramon said...

goodness gracious, doing/saying things to hurt the ones you love does happen...and ,like with you, not always on purpose. that's why i try to be more careful of what i say. Wish you the best of luck in making amends, babygirl.

Ladynay said...

Thank you, since it's not the first time this has happened for one party, I will need all the luck I can get making amends.

It's literally feeling like a ball of nausea under my ribcage right about now.

ShawnQt said...

use the secret!

Beana said...

its gon be ok sweetie. Pray about that thing. Hurt is something that no matter what you do...you can't undo. All you can do is hope they forgive you but in the meantime forgive yourself.

Anonymous said...

even though apologizing may not make it all better... it's a start.. .and will probably make things worse if u dont say anything at all...

deepnthought said...

oh ladybug, I am so sorry. please dont beat yourself up. sometimes we say stuff or are in situations that hurt others unintentionally. things happen. but just pray and hope that they understand that it was never your intention to hurt them. (((((hugs))))).

Ladynay said...

QT, I guess

J, forgiving myself for making them feel the way they do will be tough. If they don't forgive me it will be tougher.

TTD, I just did on voicemails, all can do now is wait and keep on working/living life till they decide whether to forgive me or not.

DNT, Thank you. It's hard not too beat myself up. When the crap hits the fan or something doesn't go right its usually my fault and I could have done/said something to prevent it.

Anonymous said...

It happens to the best of us!

Ladynay said...

Unfortunately :-(

sxyblkndn said...

Don't let it get you down. i was on a roll too. Been slackin at a lot of things. But I agree with deepnthought...don't let it get to you....hugz....

Mahogany Misfit said...

Are you sure an apology won't smooth things over? If these are people who love you, they will forgive you...just give it time and communicate your mistake and your regret over it sincerely.

Ladynay said...

NDN, Thanx

Mistress, I did what I could and things are moving in the right direction.