1/2 hour behind

I am running about a half hour behind. Tis the season where I have to remind myself to turn the car on and let it run for awhile before I start my daily drive! This week we are gonna stay in the forties! *sigh* Winter is here and I don't like it. The illness, the sleet, snow, ICE, the holidays, everything! Then there is a strong possiblity that I will endure this winter alone....without a warm male figure to cuddle with and without Pooka. (Yeah there is T-lo but I see him so rarely, he don't count) I may have all ready blog about this but Pooka may stay with her dad once we go home for Christmas. If baby daddy gets his stuff st8 in time, Pooka won't be back this way till July/August before she starts school. I still have mixed feelings about that, we shall see.

Yesterday I left LAL a message asking if all this stuff was happening because he wanted me to cut him loose. I know that I personally do that every now and again. In one of our last few conversations he even said "if you don't want to deal with me anymore, just let me know". Sometimes when you are dealing with someone you rather them cut the friendship/relationship off so you don't have to. But it NEVER works for me. I am always the one cutting the strings or walking away. I am not trying to cut him completely off, just to knock us down to platonic. He is a good guy and I value his imput in my life, but by us being in different chapters in our lives, I don't see how we can move out of this plateau and there is no way to compromise. I have not heard from him and I doubt I will.

Today is review day for Prof. Umfufu's final this coming Monday and the last day for my other class. I have to *gasp* give another oral presentation. I am not as nervous as I was for Dr. Fine's class, but I am scared that I will get the shakes like before. Who knows what's gonna happen!