12/6-twice amended

Yesterday we had our department wide luncheon.....*whoopie......smirk* it was ight.....

I also found out how to properly pronounce Prof. Umfufu's name! I mean it's only finals week next week, that's the best time to learn it right? I know that I have a solid A in my other four classes, but his give me doubt. I have worked my butt off for his class and if he puts anything less than a B on my card he will have to hear me complain! Cuz C's are unacceptable when you really put work into a class....unless it's something like organic chem or something.

LAL finally hit me up last night. We are still up and the air and I don't know whether I am coming or going. He wanted to know how I could be interested in him and still see T-Lo. I tried to explain that why I like him and why I like T-Lo are 2 separate things and that it is possible to be interested in more than one person. He doesn't grasp that concept.

When I met him I told him about me "actively dating" T-Lo and Redbone (at the time) and he was still interested in getting to know me, so when I asked what has changed....he says that a friend just just got burnt with a condom and it got him thinking. So I asked if he wanted to stop everything. He don't know. He don't know what he wants from me. I just want to continue to get to know him better...to see how far this can go. I told him that he has the potiental to be the next LTR in my life. I have even told him that if a lady comes in his life that wants to settle down with him before I am ready, I would step aside! I honestly can't say that I have the feelings he says he has for me, but it seems as if he doesn't even want to give me time to possibly develop those feelings. It's like he wants 100 percent of me right now, this minute and I am not ready for that type of commitment, not right now.

Why do I find the brothers that wanna buckle down when I want to see what's out there and vice versa! Always bad timing! *sigh* What am I gon' do?

OHHHHHHHHHHHH in totally unrelated news....just as you thought I had blogged my last blog on K-Digga and Whitebrotha. Turns out that KD is going around telling people that the reason I kicked them out of my house is LAL told me to! Not cuz that they where taking advantage of me instead of taking advantage of the opportunities I put them in vicinty of! One of the folks at KD's ex employer (she don't work there no more) approached LAL about it! Ain't that some ish! A co worker of mine told me she saw WB at his job yesterday so I guess they are still bring in some income. But other than that I have no idea what they are up to.

Can you beleive that! I only kicked them out cuz LAL "TOLD" me to! Lawd have mercy!

I didn't even mention the fact that KD was telling people that she got the job through WB knowing LAL! LAL had never even met WB and wouldn't hang out with someone like WB none the less hook his girlfriend up with a job! What in the WORLD!

I am having trouble with my girl Hair. Last month I let her borrow some real money *not a 20 for gas type money* so she could deal with a situation she was having. I let her borrow it because when I was in some serious need, she had my back, so giving up the money was no big deal, my bills where paid for the month. The arrangement was that I would get half back at the beginning of the month (aka NOW) and mid month. I was cool with this arrangement. Since the loan, my car has been acting crazy and this guy who looked at my car (I gotta blog about him later) told me that I need a brake job really soon. He said I had about 2,000 miles on my brakes at best. With the daily back and forth on the hwy I'll burn 2,000 miles in no time! So I just called her to bring up the money. She answers the phone and she is not having a good day and she is in more financial trouble. So I am blown! How can I ask for money she don't have? How am I gonna pull brake money out my butt? Not to mention the other stuff I planned for that first of the month repayment, but that stuff isn't as important as my ride! Thank God classes will be over soon and that will cut out my drive to Durham 5 days a week.