Tuesday, September 05, 2006


I should be sleep right now.

I am tired enough to sleep but I can't doze off.

I thought about him all day.

I wondered if I have to sit in the front pew.

I don't wanna sit in the front pew, or any pew.

The wake is Friday at 6pm.

Funeral is Saturday at 1.

Do you dress up for wakes?

I never been to one.

I brought a nice outfit.

Kinda nice he passed right after I got paid.

That sounds mean but it wasn't intentional.

I can't stand the mall.

Lane Bryant is a joke.

Why must I wear fat girl clothes?

I am the only female who don't like to shop.

Why everything I liked in Catherine's cost $100 plus?

My taste is not that expensive.

He was an important man to me, but 3 digits for an outfit is not me at all.

I have never seen my grandmother cry.

I seen the st8 face silent tear(s) but never a real cry.

I don't think I will be able to take seeing her cry for real.

Not even when cancer took her first born.

She is without a doubt one of the strongest women I know.

They were going on 44 years.

She still called him "Baby".

It was kinda cute.

Till death do us part.


Will I find a "baby" for the long haul like she did?

She got a pedicure/manicure today.

She finally went to the spa.

Wonder if the coupons were still good.

She never went before though she needed it that why everyone brought her passes to go.

It took this for her to go?

She slept good last night.

Was sleep when I called her at 9.

She deserves to sleep long and hard.

Mommy got a pedicure too.

She thinks she's cute now.

I had to put her in her place! LOL

I was mad at first, but I am glad mommy didn't come down Saturday.

Guess God knew she needed to be home Sunday morning.

Christmas won't be the same.

The great grandchildren are wearing blue and white.

He loved him some blue and white.

He loved him some gin...and everything else.

It's not a fashion show but his immediate seed right down the line are going to walk in to show respect looking sharp!

He wouldn't have had it any other way.

I wonder what he will have on.

Blue and white I guess.

My connection just died hope nobody called.

Pooka's first day of school is today (sorta)

It's the first day of her going everyday.

Her outfit is layed out.

Mine isn't.

I could be doing that now.

I could be doing my physics lab report.

Could have done it earlier.

I got till Wednesday.

Mom and crew are coming Wednesday.

I should take W, Th and F off.

Pooka needs to be in school.

I see how I feel Tuesday night.

I should really be sleep.


LUVIN ME said...

I know what it feels like to lose someone close to you...It takes time to sink in, but it seems like you are doing pretty well, considering the circumstances...you are still blogging.

Take care of yourself...

Ladynay said...

Well that's the thing Luvin, I don't feel like I am "supposed" to feel, but I have been told that's normal so I am going with that.

What's weird is that everyone went to work today, even my grandmother...I think everyone in the immediate fam is taking everything okay considering...

~HoustonNY~ said...

I really am sorry for your loss....

Doesn't school start today for all the rugrats?

Freaky Deaky said...

Everyone is probably just trying to hold it together until all the preparations are down. You feel how you feel when you feel it. That's pretty much the norm to me. In some ways it's not real for some people until they see the body at the wake or the funeral.

How's Pooka dealing with it?

deepnthought said...

You are in my heart and my prayers. You just breathe and allow yourself room to flow with your emotions as they come.

Honey-Libra said...

I know all to well these feelings and I'm sending you hugs!!! I find that bloggin helps then again reading some blogs takes my mind off of what's goin on with me at least for a second LOL...

Thoughts of a Southern gal said...

Sorry for your and your family lost.

To answer your question about the wake...no you don't dress up it

MzNewAgenda said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family at this time.

Emotionalbrotha said...

Sorry to hear about ur loved one... it takes time and writing helps to heal the soul..

wishing good thoughts ur way and here's a *cyber hug*

Ladynay said...

Okay I typed out all my responses and blogger gave me the finger! I am not the one to retype long comments so heres the short version...UGH...

T, I think every school aged child is in school by today.

FD, I don't think she grasps the concept if him being gone just yet.

Deep, thanks!

Honey, blogging is a deterant...

Southern, the plan is to wear slacks and a blouse.

NewNew, thanks babe!

EB, thanks hun!

lj said...

Sorry to hear about your grandfather...my grandparents pretty much raised me so I know how you must be feeling.

"N" Search of Ecstasy said...

I'm sorry to hear of your loss. May he rest in peace.

I really loved the random blog today ;-)

Ladynay said...

Lj - yeah it's not uncommon to be raised by your grandparents, thanks

XTC - loved that you commented on my page, thanks and thanks....

4EverJennayNay said...

awe nay-nay! take some time to chill.

fuzzy said...

Wow, you have alot going through your head at that point! what in the world were you thinking? thinking all of that stuff. Think it all out so you can get to sleep.