This weekend has been blah, but what's new. I called ole dude up Friday, who I will call Morocco, and he didn't call back till late yesterday. While I was waiting for my return call like a moron a friend of mine called to vent a little. He basically feels his biological clock ticking and he actually wants himself a long term relationship that ends in marriage and children. This makes the third guy I know of that has recently seemed to genuinely want to settle down and do something meaningful! To me that's a beautiful thing. To bad none of them live near me. I couldn't be my friend's significant other anyways because doing that would put our friendship at risk and it's too important to me risk losing.
After our convo I think I kinda sorta figured out what I would like to have. I would like to find someone I thought was worth getting to know. I know that I have some relationship issues I need to deal with before I consider doing the relationship thing, but I want someone around that I am getting to know while I am getting me together. Now I know that people in relationships always say that you have to have yourself together before you add someone to your world, and I agree to an extent. But, I mean we as humans will never have ourselves together, so when are we supposed to be ready? I dunno. Maybe this is just me trying to rationalize wanting some companionship now that my men list are empty. T-lo's acting funny so I don't know what we are doing so I put him over there------------->. Once upon a time I had choices, now I have none.
But Ladynay, you can use this time to perfect yourself and focus on what's important. You don't need a companion right now. You got a child to raise, school work to complete and agenda's to take care of at work. You want a hug? Pooka's there with unlimited hugs. You want to talk to someone? You got your girls. You want something to cuddle with on the cold nights? You got plenty of pillows and blankets. You want dick? You got that too. So why you craving a companion figure?
I don't know. I just don't know. The reason that I don't have one is cuz I been looking for one. It's hasn't been a full blown search, but I have been looking. Many people who are madly in love and very happy found it when they wasn't looking. *shrug*
So anywho, I finally talked to dude and a lot of the convo was shady. Example when I looked at the caller ID, the name didn't match the name Morocco gave me. But sometimes people have phones that are not in their names so whatever. When I answered, the dude on the line sounded like Tyrone from down the street. I guess he heard caution in my voice and asked who I was. After us indentifing one another his accent all of a sudden got heavy again.....ohhhh kay! Then there were 2 questions that he danced around: What do you do for a living? and Do you live with your wife? He is supposedly separated which I don't have a problem with because marriages fail all the time, but I wanted to know his living situation. No real answer. He also said that he was self employed, but he wouldn't tell me doing what. Then most the other answers were answered with an uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh in the beginning. This the very first convo and I am asking really basic questions that don't require thinking. Like how old is your son. YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THAT! So yeah, I don't see this going anywhere. I may just be a dog and use him for what he's worth. I don't know. It's not my style but whatever.
Pooka and I was supposed to go to my school's homecoming game yesterday but it didn't work out that way. Now we are just chilling out trying to fight this cold or whatever it is trying to get us! Lots of rest, lots of juice, lots of broth, a tad bit of meds......yummy! Pooka is not acting sick but she has this bad cough and I am sneezing :-( I may concoct some soup out of what's in the kitchen and call it a day. Not sure yet.