Thursday, March 08, 2007

Massive

This morning I cried. There was nothing else to do. I went to reach for my favorite fat girl and bloated period jeans out the pile of jeans I just washed, pulled them passed my calves, thighs, and hips. As I went to button them up they didn't want to meet up to complete the task. Oh my God! I went to reach for another pair of jeans and they met with the same fate. All I could do was cry. Did I gain that much weight in a week? Did the machine shrink my jeans up? Was it a bit of both? I regrabbed my favorite used to be fat girl baggy jeans and literally laid on the floor and shimmied to put them on!

I've been doing the right things for the most part so I don't know why I con't to go in the wrong direction. I can't afford new clothes. I won't buy new clothes.

I looked in the mirror at this figure that was still very pretty, just massive. What was beautiful curves last week became nasty lard. Am I witnessing myself become one of those people who can't get out the bed on their own? The thought alone scares me.

19 comments:

LUVIN ME said...

Don't cry Lady Nay, it's happened to the best of us...

deepnthought said...

(((((ladynay))))).... It has happened to me. (just last week).

Ladynay said...

I couldn't help it Luvin. When you put your baggy and loose clothes on to find that they nowhere close to baggy or loose anymore hurts your feelings.

DNT, :-( sorry to hear that, it SUCKS!

Thoughts of a Southern gal said...

NO you are not going to be one of those people who can't get out of bed!

Ladynay said...

Yeah I won't allow myself to be physically disabled. But the thoughts have crossed my mind.

blkbutterfly said...

no, you are not going to become disabled.

i understand why you'd cry, but like Deep said, it's happened to the best of us.

you said you'd just washed them, right? well, if you threw them in the dryer they probably just shrank a bit.

this too shall pass...

Ladynay said...

Yeah I know BB, just putting my thoughts out there.

Freaky Deaky said...

There has to be more or something else going on.

You're not going to end up on Dr. Phil, Jerry Springer, or Maury Povich.

Ladynay said...

Perhaps Freaky. I wish I knew what :-(

If I did get that way I wouldn't go on a talk show until after my surgery and I was back to "normal".

Sparkle said...

hang in there girl...I think all women go through this sort of thing at one point...I am going through it too right now....

The Mistress said...

I see the washing machine has struck another helpless victim.

That bitch!

Don't get depressed babe, blame it on that fucking machine.

That's what I do!

This is why I can't deal with periods and refuse to go off depo until after menopause (long as it don't kill me). Menstruation is the DEVIL! It fucks with all your senses, makes you gain water weight, makes you cramp and double over in pain...it's EVIL! Don't let it get you down girl! Fight the power!

Hope ya get cheered up! ;-)

Ladynay said...

Sparkle, I'm sorry that you are:-(

Mistress, LOL! Yeah that cheered me up. I cosign with the depo comment even tho' I still get the bloating :-( *sniff sniff*

Pamalicious said...

Um I'mma need you to change that title! {{{{Woo Woo Woo}}}}

I have decided that the way to combat this is to become rich. Why? Because they size things differently the more expensive the clothes go.

Ever went in Norstroms? You can hold up a freaking SHEET and the size says......12! Yea I think we all need to just get some duckets and then it won't even matter!

Keep your head up Sis!

Honey-Libra said...

Dont cry you know the dryer is broke LOL...girl it happened to me this morning and do I care..nope :)

Emotionalbrotha said...

Baby girl, u need a hug *BIG ASS CYBER HUG!!!!!!!!*

"J" said...

girl it happens to ALL of us. The 10 lbs i just lost is now just 5 and im strugglin to regain forward momentum. We are all with ya sweetie. LMAO at pam. She right tho!

Ladynay said...

Thanks for feeling me and the love ((Yall))

That Dude Right There said...

It even happens to us fellas sometimes (even though most won't admit it). But like all of the ladies said, blame the washer and dryer. If they can eat socks, they can shrink jeans!!!!!! They shrunk 2 pair of my expensive (ie. $60) jeans and I can't wear them anymore for feeling self conscious.

Ladynay said...

If they can eat socks (heaven knows mine does) they can shrink jeans! I like your logic man! :-D