Since I've been back working part time at the state, I've had a brief chance to reconnect with Slim Shady. I blogged about her before. Slim Shady is a sorta kinda friend/co-worker/associate of mine that I've known for years. She is also the one that is physically fighting the father of her second child. The one who has had him locked up. The one who showed me her battle scars the last time I worked here. The one who says she's let him go and kicks him out, but still sleeps with him and lets him stay over. Remember her?
Well recently when she came to my office space we originally started talking about her older son's school project, but somehow she changed the subject to her new child's father. She basically told me the same stuff she usually does about how she kicked him out, she's really done with him this time, how she has to move on for her kids, blah blah blah, then she goes on to tell me about how they fought the night before, how she slapped him so hard her hand literally felt like it was on fire and about to melt off her body, how he knocked her upside the head while she was holding the baby, so forth and so on...then she said something that I believe is true....
"Ladynay, he's going to end up killing me or I'm going to end up killing him".
She didn't say it in an I'm scared type of way either. It was more like a bring it on type thing. Then she told me how after the fight the previous night she thought about smothering him with a pillow as he slept. Then told him the next morning that he "liked to woke up in heaven this morning". WTH?
I just don't understand.
She told me that she told her 2nd child's father that she's getting good at fighting in the morning then coming to work with nobody knowing it. Again, stated in a manner that there is nothing wrong with what she is saying.
I just don't understand.
I was talking to Snookums about it last night and let him know that I couldn't see us fighting like that and still being together. It couldn't be me. I know love is strong and powerful, but HELLZ NAH! I know and heard many stories about battered people that stay, but HELL to the NAH! I can't do it.
Being that this is has been going on for at least a year (they been together for 2+ years and most of the first year was the lovey dovey peaches and cream stuff). Matter of fact, she got pregnant shortly after he got out of jail for beating her ass. I don't feel sorry for her anymore. Sad, but true. There are only so many times I can offer advice and suggest help. If she doesn't at least attempt to help herself she will end up dead or in jail on a murder charge.