Tuesday, August 04, 2009

I can't think of a title

and I don't wanna think anymore than I have to.

Judging by the # of emails I had in my main box I think I've been away from the computer all weekend. Been away from anything unemail related even longer.

Unbreakable, I see you! Didn't know that did you? :-) Yeah I'm calling you out.

I didn't get that Tylenol scholarship, turns out they sent out semi finalist emails on May 20th asking folks for transcripts and such. I didn't get that email. Oh well, I'll try again next year.

Pooka is coming home on the 16th! My mom is coming too. This is a good and a bad thing. It kinda sucks that I've had the entire summer to myself and have no great or exciting stories to share about what I did with my time.

I'm wondering how I am going to do the transportation to school thing for Pooka this year. If my mom is going to be here (till December) I could let her ride the bus. But her walking to the bus stop freaks me out even though I did it when I was her age. Too many stories around about kids getting snatched. *sigh*

The chick I work with on the weekends put in her 2 week notice. I wonder who'll I'll be working with the week after next.

Even though school starts in January, my first assignment will be given in October.

I've gained back all the weight I lost. Maybe cuz I haven't been to the gym in forever. Could have went yesterday but it didn't work out that way. Could have done a lot of things, just didn't.

I keep having these depressing dreams and daydreams. I don't need them to come true, but if they do I don't really have a choice in the matter now do I?

Ever feel like everyone in your life would be okay if you wasn't around? I'm not sad or anything but I was thinking that if I didn't wake up from my sleep that everyone around me would be okay. My mom would take care of Pooka and she'd have my family and her dad around to love her and deal with her needs. My mom/grand diva/and aunt diva would have Pooka to occupy their grief. Snookums wouldn't be single long and would find someone who was more and did more for him then I ever will or could. Tons of jobs would be available for those out of work and someone on the Elon waiting list would get a surprise call about a sudden opening! How cool would that be for someone? Sure folks would be sad, but in time they'd get over it and possibly benefit.

I am not sad or nothing. Just here. Had some me time to think and more often than not it doesn't end in rainbows and sunshine. Which is one of the reasons I think I don't like to be by myself or always need to have something to do. If I don't I think or binge eat.

Babydaddy asked if I could pick Pooka up after the 22nd. I reminded him I'm picking her up on the 16th. He said he wanted to take Pooka to Kings Dominion (like he told her he would) and since July was a very busy month for him that's the next weekend he has to take her. *sigh* I understand things happen, but she has been up there ALL SUMMER! She meets the teacher on the 20th so I am not willing to alter my plans to be even more rushed than I already will be to go get her. If he don't take her I guess will have to make a stop to Kings Dominion on the way back home on Monday.

Ever feel like the life your in doesn't exist? Like none of this stuff is real. It's all a figment of your imagination? I wish I could explain it.

I need some excitement in my life...seriously!

7 comments:

Freaky Deaky said...

Poor neglected e-mails. Somewhere an African prince can't get his money because you're taking forever and a year to check your e-mail. :o(

Um well Tylenol sucks anyway, I wonder if Advil has a scholarship. What?!

Are you going to snot up when you see your baby? It's okay you can tell me. I won't laugh at you...much...to your face. :o)

How far is the bus stop from your place? Maybe one day you could have a practice run with Pooka. Give her some safety tips and your mother will be home. For that matter maybe your mom can walk her to the bus stop at least until everyone's comfortable.

You're running your co-workers away aren't you? You trying to be all ruthless so you can win PT Apprentice? LOL.

I despise pre-assignments. Good luck with that.

Nope, never feel like my life doesn't exist, well unless you mean social life. Oftentimes I wish it didn't exist. More likely I feel that my life is irrelevant and much like you've expressed if I disappeared tomorrow no one would care.

When you find that excitement can you share some with me? Please? I'll be your best friend.

Ladynay said...

That prince will continue to be disappointed unless he trying to send me some money!

I won't say they suck cuz I'm trying again next year! LOL!

I will probabaly get teary eyed and love on her a lot if I know me like I think I know me. :-)

The stop is at the corner of my street. It's not far. But still. I thought about your suggestion already and I still have my reservations. We'll figure something out soon.

I may be running them off (j/k) If I was on a show like that I'd lose in the first few weeks! ROFL! Honestly speaking, I think how upper level management handles things is causing folks to leave.

Wanna do my assignment for me? Don't know what it is yet but I know I won't be excited to do it! LOL!

You never felt like this whole thing was a long detailed dream or that all of this was just made up in your mind? Again, I wish I could explain it properly.

If I have any extra left over excitement left I'll give it to you. No problem! *smile*

Thoughts of a Southern gal said...

Now I don't feel bad b/c my son has been gone all summer and I don't have any juicy stories either! FML

Oh, forgot you aren't on twitter. FML means f*ck my life. lol

blkbutterfly said...
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blkbutterfly said...

Well, you have about 2 weeks to insert some excitement. :-)

Is there anyone in the neighborhood that Pooka can walk to the bus stop with her?

If something happened to you, Pooka would manage w/o you, but quite honestly, she wouldn't be totally ok. My sister, brother, and I lost our mom when we were 20, 13, and 21 (respectively) and yeah, people have filled in for her. But, you know a substitute is never as good as the original. I'm sure you already know it, but I just wanted to let you know how needed your presence in Pooka's life.

and, yes, I oftentimes feel like my life is a dream or something I'm watching on t.v. i thought i was the only one who felt that way!

LsbnMom said...

Hang in there! If you have child withdrawals, I know where you can find a few and you can even pick your own! Even better, they know you already and are semi-trained! LOL

Sending you hugs!

Ladynay said...

Southern, there's something wrong with us! LOL!

There is a website called FML where people share stories then type FML at the end!

BB, I'm sure nothing postively super duper ultra mega exciting will happen in 2 weeks, but we'll see.

I guess.

OK, I feel a little better that I'm not the only one *smile*

Lsbnmom, I've already hung out with the chirren! LOL! I'll take the hugs anyway tho!