and I don't wanna think anymore than I have to.
Judging by the # of emails I had in my main box I think I've been away from the computer all weekend. Been away from anything unemail related even longer.
Unbreakable, I see you! Didn't know that did you? :-) Yeah I'm calling you out.
I didn't get that Tylenol scholarship, turns out they sent out semi finalist emails on May 20th asking folks for transcripts and such. I didn't get that email. Oh well, I'll try again next year.
Pooka is coming home on the 16th! My mom is coming too. This is a good and a bad thing. It kinda sucks that I've had the entire summer to myself and have no great or exciting stories to share about what I did with my time.
I'm wondering how I am going to do the transportation to school thing for Pooka this year. If my mom is going to be here (till December) I could let her ride the bus. But her walking to the bus stop freaks me out even though I did it when I was her age. Too many stories around about kids getting snatched. *sigh*
The chick I work with on the weekends put in her 2 week notice. I wonder who'll I'll be working with the week after next.
Even though school starts in January, my first assignment will be given in October.
I've gained back all the weight I lost. Maybe cuz I haven't been to the gym in forever. Could have went yesterday but it didn't work out that way. Could have done a lot of things, just didn't.
I keep having these depressing dreams and daydreams. I don't need them to come true, but if they do I don't really have a choice in the matter now do I?
Ever feel like everyone in your life would be okay if you wasn't around? I'm not sad or anything but I was thinking that if I didn't wake up from my sleep that everyone around me would be okay. My mom would take care of Pooka and she'd have my family and her dad around to love her and deal with her needs. My mom/grand diva/and aunt diva would have Pooka to occupy their grief. Snookums wouldn't be single long and would find someone who was more and did more for him then I ever will or could. Tons of jobs would be available for those out of work and someone on the Elon waiting list would get a surprise call about a sudden opening! How cool would that be for someone? Sure folks would be sad, but in time they'd get over it and possibly benefit.
I am not sad or nothing. Just here. Had some me time to think and more often than not it doesn't end in rainbows and sunshine. Which is one of the reasons I think I don't like to be by myself or always need to have something to do. If I don't I think or binge eat.
Babydaddy asked if I could pick Pooka up after the 22nd. I reminded him I'm picking her up on the 16th. He said he wanted to take Pooka to Kings Dominion (like he told her he would) and since July was a very busy month for him that's the next weekend he has to take her. *sigh* I understand things happen, but she has been up there ALL SUMMER! She meets the teacher on the 20th so I am not willing to alter my plans to be even more rushed than I already will be to go get her. If he don't take her I guess will have to make a stop to Kings Dominion on the way back home on Monday.
Ever feel like the life your in doesn't exist? Like none of this stuff is real. It's all a figment of your imagination? I wish I could explain it.
I need some excitement in my life...seriously!