I have felt nauseous since seeing that "F" word by my name this morning.
Every time I try to eat the nausea gets worse. The alcohol has no effect though. I know you shouldn't drink on an empty tummy, but the solid food makes me feel awful.
I toggle back and forth trying to decide if I want to have company over. Part of me needs a really good long cry.
I have slept about 2 hours total between the 2 naps I have had since the midnight posting. My emotions are all over the place. I drank a 1/2 bottle of rum which actually helped me take the second power nap. I force myself to celebrate with my peers that have passed because I am honestly proud of them and their hard work.
The rehab director at the job said that he will hold my position until I take the test again. The test is 4/30 and the results come back on 5/7. So I do have a reason to smile today.
I have taken a shower and forced myself to get out in the sunshine. It is a beautiful day out.
I've read online the stories of folks that have taken this thing multiple times. That petrifies me.