Thanks to the lovely depo shot, I can't blame it on PMS. I can't put it on anybody or anything either. I am hormonal. At least I was yesterday. My moods changed so quickly it shocked even me. The most dramatic swing was when I got home and was reading an MSN article about how simple embarrassment is starting to be one of the main reasons people who really need to be in the gym, like me, don't go....I started crying! I am talking about balling! WTH? Did the article trigger some more hidden emotions in my subconscious? I don't get it!
My van is still at the mechanics. Trying to get out there has been more complicated then I ever wanted it to be. Some of it's my fault. Trying to schedule a good time between my mechanic and my friends is kinda difficult. Everyone has family and a life after work to deal with and nobody is available at the same time :-( LadyKat was ready to take me this weekend, but when I called to ask her I heard her boo in the background and it reminded me of the convo we had earlier where she told me her plans with her boo. So I told her that I'd get back with her if plan A didn't work out. Plan A didn't work out but I intentionally didn't call her back to help me. I am not a blocker at least not knowingly! LOL
Other than that things are starting not to go my way again, but I am not sad about it right now. Hopefully it won't get any worse. There isn't any physical being right now to allow me to sound off even tho' I always try to be available for everyone else, but that's life.....Let me take that back, I do have a few folks I can call, but they have issues a lot more serious than mine so why vent to them about my insignificant stuff? That or they are too busy so who am I to stop their flow for what would seem like nothing to them? One day I am going to stop trying to be the cheerleader, the hearing and listening ear, the mental support system for every daggone body. Maybe that's the problem, I am always wanting, willing, and around to help since I have no sort of life. Most would think being there for folks is a good thing, but not all the time.