Past couple of days haven't been the most fun and exciting for me.
I got a C in my Physics class, which is as good as the news gets. Now I'm trying to focus on the GRE I plan to take next month. Been taking the practice sessions online this weekend and let's just say I am not as confident as I was before I started practicing. The part that freaks me out the most is the 2 writing portions. I've read what grade 6s are (which is the best score) and I am not sure I can create something like that in 30-45 minutes, no spell or grammar check!
I'm officially done with the book classes I need to graduate. I am taking 2 courses in the fall to fulfil grad school prerequisites. There is one additional course I need for UNC but it's only offered in the spring, after I graduate. I basically have to appeal my case to the admissions committee and get their blessing on it. I'll be working on that today.
I am supposed to be working in my field for my internship right now, but all my plans fell through which hurt my feeling and was the cause of many tears these past few days. I mean I've volunteered and worked so hard to secure a spot and be at the right place at the right time and I have nothing. Went from 2 supervisors offering me work to NADA. I left a voice mail to my academic advisor telling her what happened and asking what I need to do.
I applied to 2 other places and I haven't heard anything yet. One is a state position and I know that takes a while to go through all the red tape and stuff. I kinda feel bad cuz when I faxed my app in on the day it closed at the last minute I rushed the application and noticed that the part where you list your duties was not parallel. On the first part I copied and pasted from the resume which is bullet pointed, on the second part I typed straight out, no bullet points. It may seem small but HR folks, from what I heard look at stuff like that. *shrug*
I am thankful for my job that pays my bills and allows me to splurge every now and again...BUT I WANT OUT! Part of one of my crying sessions was the fact that I am still at this job! The wick has burned out and now I am just going through the motions. Again, I am thankful for it cuz I could be unemployed and their are people right now who got laid off and are wishing they had a job like mine. I understand all that...I still feel ready to go to the next level in my career. Sometimes patience really is a mutha.
Sorta can't believe I wanted to give up because I felt/still sorta feel that the universe isn't giving me my due when I put in the work. My brain knows that I have to stay on track and just keep on grinding it out until things work out and that giving up is a sure fire way not to reach my current goals.
Oh yeah, I brought another dryer finally. I borrowed some money to take it off of a friends hands that no longer needed it. This is great right? Well when I went to get it the dryer worked, matter of fact, my friend was drying their last load in it. I take it home to realize I have the wrong plug. Thanks to the internet I swap the cords out with no problem (yay me) I plug my new machine in the wall to find out that between the friends house and my house the heating element (im guessing) went out. So now I have not one, but 2 dryers that do not work properly. I LOVE IT! Yeah I know I can change the heating element for under 20 bucks or something like that, but given my trip this weekend and Pookas party the next weekend all my "extra" money is already stretched out and accounted for. I wish I could blame someone but the only person I can blame is myself. I am the only one who touched the damn thing after it was loaded in the van!
Other than that I have 2 friends going through emotional stuff and I have no idea how to help, compared to my stuff what I have going is nothing, but still couldn't force myself into the right mindset to say even the generic stuff people say to help you feel better. I gave an honest try but even when I said stuff I knew it would not be effective. *shrug* We'll all get over our crap in due time.