Monday, August 11, 2008

Ugh!

Past couple of days haven't been the most fun and exciting for me.

I got a C in my Physics class, which is as good as the news gets. Now I'm trying to focus on the GRE I plan to take next month. Been taking the practice sessions online this weekend and let's just say I am not as confident as I was before I started practicing. The part that freaks me out the most is the 2 writing portions. I've read what grade 6s are (which is the best score) and I am not sure I can create something like that in 30-45 minutes, no spell or grammar check!

I'm officially done with the book classes I need to graduate. I am taking 2 courses in the fall to fulfil grad school prerequisites. There is one additional course I need for UNC but it's only offered in the spring, after I graduate. I basically have to appeal my case to the admissions committee and get their blessing on it. I'll be working on that today.

I am supposed to be working in my field for my internship right now, but all my plans fell through which hurt my feeling and was the cause of many tears these past few days. I mean I've volunteered and worked so hard to secure a spot and be at the right place at the right time and I have nothing. Went from 2 supervisors offering me work to NADA. I left a voice mail to my academic advisor telling her what happened and asking what I need to do.

I applied to 2 other places and I haven't heard anything yet. One is a state position and I know that takes a while to go through all the red tape and stuff. I kinda feel bad cuz when I faxed my app in on the day it closed at the last minute I rushed the application and noticed that the part where you list your duties was not parallel. On the first part I copied and pasted from the resume which is bullet pointed, on the second part I typed straight out, no bullet points. It may seem small but HR folks, from what I heard look at stuff like that. *shrug*

I am thankful for my job that pays my bills and allows me to splurge every now and again...BUT I WANT OUT! Part of one of my crying sessions was the fact that I am still at this job! The wick has burned out and now I am just going through the motions. Again, I am thankful for it cuz I could be unemployed and their are people right now who got laid off and are wishing they had a job like mine. I understand all that...I still feel ready to go to the next level in my career. Sometimes patience really is a mutha.

Sorta can't believe I wanted to give up because I felt/still sorta feel that the universe isn't giving me my due when I put in the work. My brain knows that I have to stay on track and just keep on grinding it out until things work out and that giving up is a sure fire way not to reach my current goals.

Oh yeah, I brought another dryer finally. I borrowed some money to take it off of a friends hands that no longer needed it. This is great right? Well when I went to get it the dryer worked, matter of fact, my friend was drying their last load in it. I take it home to realize I have the wrong plug. Thanks to the internet I swap the cords out with no problem (yay me) I plug my new machine in the wall to find out that between the friends house and my house the heating element (im guessing) went out. So now I have not one, but 2 dryers that do not work properly. I LOVE IT! Yeah I know I can change the heating element for under 20 bucks or something like that, but given my trip this weekend and Pookas party the next weekend all my "extra" money is already stretched out and accounted for. I wish I could blame someone but the only person I can blame is myself. I am the only one who touched the damn thing after it was loaded in the van!

Other than that I have 2 friends going through emotional stuff and I have no idea how to help, compared to my stuff what I have going is nothing, but still couldn't force myself into the right mindset to say even the generic stuff people say to help you feel better. I gave an honest try but even when I said stuff I knew it would not be effective. *shrug* We'll all get over our crap in due time.

Ugh!

17 comments:

AR Gal said...

I'm sorry my psychic abilities let you down this time. :-( I promise to do better next time. :-D

Ladynay said...

LOL! A "C" in physics is an "A" in my book ARGAL so your psychic abilities are still on point :-D

Freaky Deaky said...

Congrats! I've had a few classes where getting a C was like an A. LOL! I wish I was smart in every subject but I'm painfully aware of the ones I suck in. Glad you're done with Physics.

Have you talked to Dr. P about your internship problem? I'm betting she could probably help you.

I have a position or two you can come in and apply for. ;o) What?!

Damn, if you're that handy can you fly up and fix my garbage disposal and clean my vents? Pretty please? I'll be your best friend.

Ladynay said...

Thank you. You and me both are glad about not suffering through anymore Physics! :-)

I left a message with Dr. P, she hasn't got back to me yet.

I don't even wanna know...nope!

As far as the disposal, what worked for me is pressing the reset button under the disposal and taking a plunger to it. Outside of that I can't help you, try Google! *wink*

Vents? Ummmm I'll pass! hahahaha

Thoughts of a Southern gal said...

Congrats on getting passing your Physics class. Was this the last physics you have to take?

Ladynay said...

Yessssssssssssssss lawd!

*going into a holy spirit dance*

LOL!

The Goddess said...

Well a 'C' isn't bad considering you were worried about not passing. Physics has never been my thing. I KNOW I would have got a big FAT 'F'. lol

Sorry to hear about the dryer. That definitely sucks. We went through that for a minute where we had to go to the laundry mat because we had a gas dryer and couldn't connect it. That was a PAIN!!! At least it wont be too costly to get it repaired.

I thought I was busy and had a lot going on. Girl I get tired just reading about every thing you have to do. lol

Ladynay said...

A "c" is wonderful in this case! I think I could have pulled off an A if I tried just that much harder but I am A okay with a "C"!

Yeah I guess, just wasn't planning on buying a fixer upper, knowing what I know now I could have fixed my original one for cheaper than I what I paid for the newer one! Oh well.

I do what I have to cuz I am trying to be successful in a skinny white woman field. It's hard for them to make it through so it's gonna be that much harder for me! Sitting back and waiting for it to come to me won't cut it.

Monique said...

Hey, a C is better than a D. Just take it a lesson learned. i'm sure the next class will be better.

Two non-working dryers? Dang.

Darius T. Williams said...

But listen...it could be a lot worse, right?

Ladynay said...

Monique, you sound as if I am saying a C is a bad thing! LOL!

Yeah 2 dryers that don't do right. I'm stuck with 'em so whatever...

Darius, of course it can be worse. I still can not be happy about what is!

blkbutterfly said...

yay for the A in physics! ok, so while there's not an A on the transcript, but given all the work you put in, we'll call it an A, ok? lol...

i need to get like you and learn to do little handy things!

is the writing portion weighed heavily for your grad programs? if not, i wouldn't worry too much about it and just concentrate on the other more important sections. oh, and thanks for reminding me about the GRE! my scores are still (barely) valid, but i may take it again to up that math score.

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

the grade in physics disappoints me
we need more competent scientist
not to mention i used to teach it

thatgirl said...

I agree with ladynay about the C and hang in there girlie. It'll get better. I know how stressful it is when you are about to graduate and want your life to get started quickly but everything seems to be happening at a glacial pace.

Ladynay said...

BB, It's an A to me :-)

It never hurts to have a hammer and wrenches around for the easier tasks that around the house that anyone can do ;-)

I don't know how much the writing portion is weighted, but I do know that if the admissions committee at UNC has 2 people who are at the same level, one of the determining factors of who gets the seat is who has the higher GRE score.

Torrance, sad to hear you aren't thrilled about the grade but it's a known and proven fact that me and physics have not and probably will never get along as well as you two do.

Thatgirl, PATIENCE IS A *BLEEP* fill that in with any bad word you want! LOL!

kasandra said...

I try to believe everything happens for a reason, but DAMN!! Congrats on that "A" girl!! Hope in the future, I won't be taking that.

Ladynay said...

I don't think computer folks have to. Be glad girl!