So where the hell have I been? Working, literally. At the moment I volunteer 4 hours a week and work 62+ hours a week. I could do an entire post about the plus sign behind that damn 62! LOL! The plan is to do this until December then quit 2 of my jobs to prep for grad school, but I don't know if I'll last that long. I just don't know. I am cursing a lot more and my days kind of run together, which are two signs that my mental realm is starting to warp. I'm taking this one day at a time. The 3 folks holding me together right now is Pooka, my mom, and the other half. Its very important to me that I make contact with them often and sometimes just hearing the sounds of their voices makes my day so much better. Kinda like a reminder that the sacrifice is worth it.
I have many different soaps and body washes. Today I showered with a mutual soap me and the other half has and all morning I keep smelling him! I love it. Did that sound obsessive? I hope not, LOL! With my current schedule I don't get to interact with him like I used to which sucks IMO. When I spoke to him last night one of his first questions to me was "how many hours did you work today?" The number is always too many for my liking. However, when it's all over he will benefit too! I want to do something very special for him and it takes a good bit of money to do what I want to do in the fashion I want to do it. If you want more money you have to work for it, that's how it works in my world. :-( Why couldn't I have been born into money, like Paris Hilton or somebody!
This is my last week of being an off duty parent. I can't wait to see my child! I can't believe I've gone the whole summer without a hug or nothing from her. I sorta see how her dad must feel. I'm sorta scared to see what she is looking like these days because my mom informed me that she will definitely need a new wardrobe for school! *sigh* I really hope my mom and grand diva did not fatten her up too much. She was solid and thick when I dropped her off, so that's kinda how I want her back with maybe a little more height. I really don't want her to grow up being chunky like I was.
For her last big summer activity before school she is going back to 6 flags. I heard she had a good time when my cousin took her and my other cousins at the beginning of the break so I'm sure she'll have a great time again. I personally have not been to a large scale amusement park in years. I'm not aching to go to one either so I'm good! LOL!
In 16 days my child will be 8 years old. Lawd have mercy! *smh* She wants her birthday party to be at the same place it was last year. As much as like Frankie's I hope she'll change her mind and pick a different location.
Like everything else, we'll see what happens and where we all end up....