Friday, April 23, 2010

Team Ladynay

Today is the 1st day of my "break" from Elon. I don't go back till May 3rd! I still have work to do but at least that is a full week that I don't have to commute!

Yesterday I had a meeting with one of my professors. Part of one of my finals was to videotape a scenario, critique it on our own, then view it with the professor for her 2 cent. After we went through that process she asked if she could talk to me "off the record". No prob. She goes on to remind me that in my career field people like me pretty much don't exist. She said that everyone in the program has to work hard, but since I have 2 things against me (in the field) 1)being overweight and 2)being black, I have to work 3 times as hard as everyone else. When I walk into patient room it won't be uncommon for people to automatically assume that I don't know what I'm doing or talking about because of my appearance. That's why I can't leave the program as just a good therapist, I have to be a damn good flawless therapist that's on top of her shit. People are going to look for reasons to be negative and always have something to say.

She said that she is going to be hard on me this up coming module. This module is very hands on and very much about techniques. She wanted to tell me up front so I wouldn't feel like she was picking on me. She said that people will eat me up for the smallest of mistakes, so she has made it point to make sure that I'm doing everything right and will get on me for every little thing. She mentioned that if their was anything I needed help or advice on to call her.

I am very much aware of my lack ability to blend in with the people in my field appearance wise and I told her I knew that my journey would be more difficult than the others. It's just reality.

I am sure that there are professors in the program that question my ability to succeed, so it's nice to know that I have at least one professor that's team Ladynay.

I hung out with some classmates last night (watched Sex in the City) and when I told them what she said they took it the WRONG way. We were talking about the next module and I was trying to say that my mod 3 will be worse than theirs because a professor all ready told me they were going to be on my butt (for good reason, but still)! I kept trying to make them understand that she was being supportive but they couldn't see it that way *shrug*

When I left my classmates place I took my cell phone out the cup holder I left it in to see if I had any calls. I had a very supportive text from Snookums waiting on me. It just got me thinking about all the people I have surrounding me that are team Ladynay. They communicate so much care to me it's just awesome! Like the 2nd year I carpool with for example. Everyday before an exam she'd text me a msg saying something like "Good luck this morning, you'll do awesome!" It cheers me up every time. I try to do the same in return but I am not as on point w/it as she is. Their is another 2nd year that struck up a conversation with me about what we are doing and I mentioned that this certain topic was kicking my butt. He mentioned it kicked his butt last year then offered to help me with anything he did understand that I didn't get in the future. Awesome! After my last test yesterday I was in the computer lab and some 2nd and 3rd years came in and I asked about how I did, I responded and got hugs and high five's! Awesome! I could go on and on about folks but I should be working and making that $$$ right now! LOL!

I really don't know what I'd do without their encouragement and support! I truly don't. Hope this support lasts a very long time. Members of Team Ladynay rock! LOL!


Freaky Deaky said...

I hope you enjoy your break and actually have some fun and relaxation.

I can see both sides of it. Your classmates' anger is commendable. Seems to me if your going into debt to fund your education AND that debt is in part being used to pay the salaries of your professors it should be in everyone's interest to at least want to see you succeed.

Standing out isn't always a bad thing.

Ladynay said...

I'll fit some fun and relaxation in for sure! It'll be another 12 weeks before I'll have the chance again! LOL!

It should be that way, but I don't believe that every professor thinks I'll make it, just like they won't all try and go the extra mile to make sure I'm on top of my game once I graduate. I'm pretty sure the ones that may think that way would never tell me to my face or act like it. It's just my thinking. Nothing's confirmed.

Monique said...

I think that was nice of your professor to give you heads up. Most won't do it and you know what, this could be the vote of confidence that you need. Hang in there. I know you will do fine.

Jc "Teezie" Wooten said...

Team LadyNay Rocks!

I have been on your team for - seems like forever. You are going to not only do it. But you are going to do it BIG! Don't forget all your other "obstacles" and still you succeed!

There is no where to go but UP!

Keep up the great work and kiss Pooka for me. BTW When is your next breather between mods?

Ladynay said...

Mo, me too. It's nice to know someone is looking out for you and trying to prepare you for what's out there. Thanks.

TZ, it seems like you have been down with Team Ladynay forever because you have been! LOL! Thanks!

Next break is 7/23. So far all my plans for that break are not solid, which is why I haven't said anything about anything yet to anyone. I just don't know what's going to happen or where I'll be. There's a bunch of stuff (including your stuff) floating around as possibilities.

Will do on the Pooka kissing! LOL!

Jameil said...

AHHH YEAH!! I'm SO Team Ladynay!! I feel your professor's words. I would be very appreciative, too. Every professor is def. not gonna be lookin out if for no other reason than some of them don't feel like taking the time if you don't reach out to them.

blkbutterfly said...

enjoy your break because God knows you deserve it!

well, it's good that your prof addressed those perceptions and how you have to be twice as good. it's one thing to know about those things, but it's something else to hear someone in the profession admit it and commit to helping you be ready to face those challenges.